Disappointment

I have been told no, more than I have been told yes. Job interview after job interview. “No. I am sorry. We have someone else in mind.” Discouraging doesn’t even scratch the surface at times.

It is hard to not to think that it’s me. I wasn’t good enough for that job or this job. For some jobs, maybe I wasn’t good enough. It can be demoralizing. Doubts. Second guessing the interviews. What could I have done better? The answer most of the time is nothing.

But look at where I am. I would not be where I am if I hadn’t dusted myself off every time I was told no and kept interviewing. Failure?

“The only failure is not to try.” – George Clooney

“The same thing holds true for a positive outlook, however. Color your mind with the right thoughts, color them with what’s possible, and then whatever you’re trying to do—whether it’s trying to start a company or salvage a relationship or lose twenty pounds or quit drinking or make partner at your law firm—you’ll be able to manage it.” Daily Stoic newsletter, April 26, 2021

I believe I am ready for the next step in my career. It is my job then to keep a positive outlook and to color my mind with what’s possible. Will I continue to be told no? 100%. I will not allow those voices to then become my internal voice.

I will continue to be me. I will continue to let others know what I believe, not what I think they want to hear. One day the right opportunity will come along, and I will be ready.

Why?

After I read Simon Sinek’s Start With Why I believe that before you do anything in life you need to know your why. Why did I start this blog? Well here it is.

I never saw myself as a writer. As a matter of fact I was your prototypical math/science kid. I didn’t enjoy reading or writing for pleasure. I saw it as something that I had to do to get good grades, and even then it was like pulling teeth. As I got older and was able to choose what I read, reading became a passion. Several years ago I was going through a rough time and turned to journaling to cope with my own emotions. I have written in my journal almost every day for the last 8 years and have found it very therapeutic. I have also found it very helpful in organizing my thoughts about what I believe in life and education. Just recently as the Executive Director of Human Resources, I have started an internal “blog” to our entire staff to try to help them stay positive in these uncertain times. I try to incorporate what I am reading and my own writing style. These emails got me thinking that maybe I could spread some of this positivity to a wider audience and share my ideas about education in this time of huge change.

I am not sure where this blog will go. I’m writing this blog because I’m passionate about education, and I have some ideas that I think will help make students become inquirers and empower them to take control of their own learning. I don’t know if I will say anything profound or if my ideas are worthwhile. I would love to know what you think.